Zayde was still shaking, but he was pushing past his nerves and the voice in his head that had gone from trying to convince him that the way he felt was wrong to just flat out calling him disgusting and perverted for wanting this.
Oh, how he wanted this. It didn’t matter how much he called himself names that mimicked the words his father had used on him. This felt like the only light he’d seen in a world full of darkness for longer than he cared to admit, and for all the religious shit Cassar had forced down his sons throat, this was what felt holy to Zayde. This felt like something he wanted to get on his knees for and give himself over to, not some enforced lip service to a god he didn’t believe in, who didn’t accept him for who he truly was in the first place.
He could smell the spike in want and it had him pressing Zayde’s back against the wall, practically pinning him. His hands cupped the other’s face, body pressed to his, and he had to swallow the groan building in his throat. Sure, Devin wasn’t exactly attention starved, but it had been some time since he had been with anyone in any manner that wasn’t just a quick one nighter filled with regret and the need to scrub someone else’s scent off of his skin.
But this, whatever it was, he didn’t want it to be quick and over. He didn’t want to erase Zayde’s scent and pretend it never happened. This, oh this, he wanted.


