Day: May 10, 2018

mythsandmonsters:

“I think he looks at himself enough like that for the pair of them,” Isaac nodded in agreement, knowing how hard Parker could be on himself thanks to assholes back home driving the point in so hard with him that it became an ingrained habit and destroyed what was left of the kid’s self-esteem.

“She gives him something to focus on that isn’t himself.”

“Five says those two end up together in the long run,” she added on, knowing the signs well enough. She had seen it happen more time than she could count and those two kids suited one another. 

“She’s good for him and I think he’s better  for her than he realizes.” 

mythsandmonsters:

It wasn’t an idle threat. Even if their immediate family didn’t have the means to do it themselves, Cord knew at least one necromancer that could be called in a pinch, so Gabe knew not to press the joke any further.

“I won’t. I promise. You can pretty much keep me under lock and key from now on if it helps?”

“I don’t see your mother agreeing to that. She thinks it was my fault,” she mumbled, lower lip quivering a little. 

Eva leaned in and pressed a kiss to his forehead before trying to smile at him again. “You should rest, okay?”

rustandglass:

“I don’t know,” he murmured in response.

It was the truth in as much as he didn’t know how to put things into words that wouldn’t sound stupid or make things worse.

“I just…”

He’d never felt so awful at trying to just talk to Devin before. It felt like he’d lost all ability to say anything that felt worthwhile, especially when right now mostly he just felt worthless. It took him a moment, but he gathered the courage to at least say the only thing that was solid out of all of the shit in his head right now, and even Zayde was surprised with hos small and remorseful he sounded as he said it.

“I don’t know how to fix things, but all I want is to try to get back some of what we had. I know I don’t deserve it, but it’s the only thing that makes sense to me. Nothing else matters to me now except trying to make things right.”

“You broke my heart, Zayde, it’s going to take time,” he answered truthfully, the pain he still felt over it all creeping into his tone. He couldn’t even really look at the other when he answered, but he needed to be honest. 

Setting the food aside, he pulled one knee to his chest and closed his eyes, trying to word things carefully.

“It took months for Lis to get me even remotely functional and then she got shot. Right now, she needs to be my priority because she’s the only family I have. At the end of everything, she’s the one constant in my life. 

“I love, I really fucking do, so please don’t think I don’t. But this is going to take time. And I don’t have a lot of that right now so it’s going to take patience too.”

mythsandmonsters:

“I’m okay,” she sighed, looking at him sheepishly.

“I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable. Quite the opposite, actually. Guess I kinda made a mess of that, huh?”

She was trying to put some humour back into the situation, for both their sakes, but she felt like she was failing miserably.

“Jus’ di’n’ see i’ comin’. Ain’ really the one girls throw themsel’es a’.” 

He had spent years watching people in general gravitate towards his dad, but Chay lacked the charisma and charm that his father seemed to possess. His sister had inherited, but he was more like his mother if what he had been told about her was right. 

rustandglass:

“Thanks.”

The room fell silent again, dragging out just a little too long for Zayde’s comfort, but he really didn’t know how to break the silence without saying something stupid, so he froze up instead, which only added to the awkwardness.

After what felt like twenty minutes (it was likely only about five), Devin had to say something. The silence was too much for him to handle and he was one that usually like things quiet.

“What’s wrong?”

mythsandmonsters:

Gypsy looked a little hurt, chewing her lip and retreating to just out of arms reach.

“Look, I like you, okay?” she mumbled, still trying to avoid looking at him. “I just didn’t want you to be all alone and upset. Every year I watch you do this, and I just couldn’t let it slide by for another one without at least trying to help. I care about you.”

The pale blue faded, the marks remaining stark against his skin as he tried to process what she was saying through the haze of the moonshine. He hadn’t meant to upset her.

“Sorry, ya jus’… ya caugh’ me off guard. I…” He had had no clue she had ever even remotely had a crust on him. “Don’ be sad, please?”

rustandglass:

The shirt didn’t help in the slightest.

Zayde figured that Devin had noticed his inappropriate response to his appearance and that only made him fret all the more about messing things up again.

Forcing a nod and weak smile, he let Devin leave before flopping down into his pillow and curling up, mad at himself and not sure how to dig himself out of this mess.

He returned after about 15 minutes, Lissa still passed out with the wolf mix curled up next to her. He knew his sister wouldn’t like waking up next to anyone but he also knew Talyse wouldn’t care. It was almost enough to make him laugh. 

It wasn’t exactly breakfast food, but he didn’t really care as he settled a couple bowls of stew on the sort of shabby table by the bed and perched on the edge of the mattress, the shirt straining every time he moved. 

“There’s stuff to drink in the cupboard over there..”

mythsandmonsters:

Her expression changed in an instant to one of thinking she completely overstepped the mark.

“S-sorry…” she faltered, avoiding eye contact and blushing a deep shade of crimson. Sure, it was a clumsy pass, but Gypsy wasn’t anywhere near as good at coming onto people as Eva was, and it showed at that moment.

As for having never shown him that sort of attention before, it wasn’t because she wasn’t interested. If anything, it was because she always assumed he didn’t think of her that way anyway since he’d mostly treated her like a baby sister even when she wasn’t a kid anymore.

She had startled him enough for the marks on his skin to glow faintly, but he wasn’t mad or upset, just merely confused. He wasn’t the best when it came to that sort of thing, it was part of why he didn’t exactly date or anything.

“I don’… I don’ un’erstan’ wha’ jus’ happened,” he mumbled, feeling like he actually needed a drink now.

rustandglass:

“Okay,” Zayde nodded, trying to keep his focus on Devin’s face while he was talking. How he hadn’t noticed before now would have been harder to explain if Zayde hadn’t been so emotionally fraught or on drugs previously, but here he was, stone cold sober and back from the brink of despair, and he it’s all he could notice when it was right there in front of him, Zayde mentally yelling at himself to stop thinking about it.

He went to take a step forward before stopping himself and tugging the shirt on. It was one he had left here before everything had fallen apart and it didn’t fit well anymore, but it worked. He had wanted to lean in and kiss him, but he wasn’t at that point yet. 

“Be right back.”

mythsandmonsters:

Gypsy rolled her eyes and let out a sweet laugh, realising she was going to have to spell it out for him loud and clear.

Leaning over the bar, she ran her thumb over his cheek, a playful smirk on her lips.

“I mean this, ya dummy,” she murmured, stealing a soft but lingering kiss.

The kiss had him jumping back a little, a confused frown creasing his brow as he stared at her.

“Wha’ are ya doin’?” 

He couldn’t think of a time where she had ever shown that kind of interest in him and it was a little shocking to say the least. He had known her practically her whole life but this was a first.